I gained weight, stopped taking care of myself, cried myself to sleep almost every night, constantly compared myself to others, stopped hanging out with friends because I was embarrassed of how I looked and I was so fkn cruel to myself. 

I was soooooo sad and got to the point where I was like, “okay I am scared of my thoughts and need to try to do something to save myself.” 

I was making unhealthy choices physically and mentally and every area of my life felt so dark.

I did not reach out for help or tell others I was struggling. 

I am the second oldest of six kids and part of me just couldn’t let my siblings known how badly I was hurting. I had always been the strong and happy one and I wanted to stay that way in their minds. I turned to online resources to save myself. 

That led me to finding close to no one and nothing that actually TAUGHT me how to change my life, just people and things saying TO do it which honestly frustrated the helllll out of me and initially made me feel even more hopeless. 

I quickly realized that if my sisters experienced a time in their lives where they felt hopeless and alone they would find the same results. This was my drive behind learning how to change my world and the reason I discovered the key to going from sad to savage. I kept telling myself if I could figure it out I could help them and even help other peoples sisters or someone that doesn't have a sister and that was the thought that kept me going failure after failure.

One day I decided that I would listen to an audiobook to see if that made me feel better. 

That thought led me to be like, ‘hmm I guess I will listen to it while going on a walk!’ 

I realized I didn’t even have time to go on a walk because I was working 3 jobs and decided I would wake up just a little bit before work to go on that walk. I luckily already had an audible subscription from a summer I spent alone interning in DC. I had a 2-hour commute, got it to kill the time and honestly didn't take the time to cancel my subscription. 

After googling 'Self-help books' I bought 'The Power of Habits'. 
I will forever be indebted to that book for introducing me to the sole information that has completely changed my life (and that is now allowing me to help ya'll change yours!) 

Since then, my entire perspective of myself, my world, and life has changed. I went from sad, struggling, making terrible choices in every aspect of my life to a grateful, growing and now a freaking savage lol.